As one door closes...

I have been meaning to jump on-line to update our blog following our meeting with the Nurse Coordinator at QFG. However, as most people will know and understand, this time of year can be somewhat hectic and time has gotten away from me. Anyways, after our last failed IUI, we had an hour long meeting with one of the nurses at the QFG clinic to discuss all aspects of IVF. I knew it was much more involved than the IUI, but came out of that meeting completely blown away by what lays ahead physically and financially in 2010. The whole process kicks off in February when I go on to the "pill". This helps regulate my cycle so that it is exactly 28 days and they also use it to manipulate your cycle to fit in with the pre-determined egg pick up date which for us is April 14 2010. Closer to this time the heavy duty drugs begin. It starts with a nasal spray to supress the ovaries, then injections to really hyper-stimulate them. From what we've been told the IVF process can knock you around a bit and I must admit there is an element of trepidation just at the thought of it all. However, we are trying to look at it as a blip on the radar when considering the bigger picture. So as the New Year approaches, we are hopeful that there may be a new addition to our nest.

Mother Nature 3 - Team NewVoe 0

It is with a huge amount of disappointment that this entry is written - as we haven't had a positive result with our third IUI attempt.Whilst our previous failures have been bitter pills to swallow, this by far has been the most gut wrenching of them all. I think so many of our family and friends (us included) thought this was going to be the one that worked. People thought I had "that look, you know the glow", and although I didn't particularly feel any different Kyles and I held the hope that the younger donor may have been the key to our success. Unfortunately this time around it wasn't to be.

Just as this weeks Pearl of Wisdom asserts it is important that we not be defeated, but bravely forge ahead - and that is exactly what we intend to do. I mean what other choice is there? We would dearly love to have a child/children together and to give up on our dream at this point would almost be a sin.

We are realistic enough to know that we now have to cut our losses with the 10-15% success rate of the IUI's and move on to IVF which has a 35-40% success rate. So we are booked in for an IVF planning session with the clinic's nurses on thursday and from here we will work towards EPU late March early April 2010.

To finish off this post we would like to sincerely thank everyone for their prayers to the fertility godesses on our behalf!! While it appears they fell on deaf ears this time around, we will definately be needing them in approximately 16 weeks time.

Ups and Downs

When we began the blog I had planned to keep things on the lighter side. However, I also feel it is important to be honest in documenting both the highs and lows of this process. My post today discusses one of our journey's lows.

As we approach "P" day I have experienced for the first time, difficulty in hearing and seeing other couples pregnancy joys. Not to be taken the wrong way, I couldn't be happier for each and every one of these people, but I just wish it was happening for us. I know our time will come and many before us have had just as many, if not more trials and tribulations along the way, but at the end of the day it's still tough. I am finding it hard to remain positive all the time when we face being unsuccessful yet again. This baby making caper can very easily be reduced to Success Vs Failure and repeated failure can quickly become disheartening. I know the jury is still out on this IUI and we have our IVF plan in place should we not get one up on Mother Nature, but right now I am finding it difficult to be up-beat about this whole process. I wish my body would just give me a freakin sign - put me out of my misery please. It is times like this that all those positive affirmations and words of wisdom (patience is a virtue) come in handy to get you through one day at a time.